Stall....

Everybody is moving but me, everything is going about their business but it feels my business has stopped suddenly. Is it the injury? Is it all this time to think? I do feel like I havent accomplished as much as I could've. Do I have time to fix it? I think i do, but it wont be much. It has been a weird week, reliving memories and pains. I hate being stalled, I hate being away from that rectangle, and now more than ever, I realized I've been taking for granted the love for that rectangle and what happens within its boundaries. I must be patient now, knowing that once I am free again, I wont make the same mistake again, twice... I must now work when nobody sees, giving it all when nobody thinks I can. Going back to basics, to the true basics that got me here

The Man in the Glass

Just you, do you, be you... Always positive

The Man in the Glass

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And he world makes you king for a day
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say

For it isn’t your father or mother or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass
This fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass

You may be like Jack Horner and Chisel a plum
And think you’re a wonderful guy
But the man in the glass says you’re only a bum
If you can’t look him straight in the eye

He’s the fellow to please – never mind all the rest
For he’s with you clear to the end
And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend

And may fool the whole world down the pathways of years
And get pats on the back as you pass
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you cheated the man in the glass

NO EXCUSES

Familiar Feelings

It all started in Dec. 29th, 2005... I became what I am today, I turned to be who I am today. For the next 5 months, my life and my preception of it changed so much, that even today I'm still learning and discovering things I never knew existed and could affect me. I thought I had left it all behind, that the leasson was learned and never to be seen again... but as life has always taught us, history tends to repeat itself, and for the next couple of weeks, I will be in the same situation I was for the last three months of a season that was my season. I dont blame anybody, I cant and I never will; it was a blessing in disguise that has put me where I am today.
Although the settings are different, I have the same thoughts, same feelings, same duties, same sensations... I let everything build up to where it is today, and now I must stay faithful and positive to bring it all down. I'm the one to blame for becoming complacent, allowing myself to agree to what happens around me without even attempting to deal with it. I'm flying through the motions, but I know that it's not me, you know that it's not me, and He knows that it's not me. I didnt work out for nothing, I didnt sweat for nothing, I didnt cry and pray for nothing, I didnt run and shoot for nothing, I didnt study for nothing... I came to a stop, a good stop, because know I can be on the way again, THE way to be me, with You and her.

Thank You