Light

I see it, I feel it, I sense it... It is here, it is now, it is my time. After readings, workouts, diets, weight rooms, runs, sprints, ice, stem, talks... the time for me to be is here. I get goosebumps, I get the chills because I know how big this is, how many doors I can open if I do what I'm capable off doing and more. I know I will do so, I know I will perform, I know I will give it my best, I know I cannot fail, I know I'm ready, I know and believe this is for me, I know He's with me, I know everything is set and ready, and I know the outcome will be the best for me, my dreams, my future, my baby. The end of the tunnel approaches fast, the light is brighter and more powerfull as I get closer; I'm not afraid, because there's nothing to be scared off. It's either black or white, either I play or I dont, either I run or I dont... No excuses, no delays, no bullshit.... This is it, this is my time, the moment is finally here.... For You, for her, for me - Is 41:10

It Is What It Is

Thoughts and thoughts, and more thoughts, and desires, and dreams, and more dreams.... My mind is a mix of everything, attempting to sort out whats important, whats worth keepin and whats worth really absorbing. Eventfull times I must say, but during this so not crazy times, there's always time to stop, step out, look, and analyze. Many changes are approaching, a new begining is coming at full speed at me, and as days go by I know and realize that I'm ready for it. I'm a little concerned because I'm facing a new complete world, a totally different paradigm where my reality is going to shift so drastically, that many things I used to believe were right or good, are going become pointless and worthless.

It has been a long ride, with a lot of lessons learned, a lot of misdirections and misconceptions that shifted my path, one that was getting me away from what I must become. Although I thought I was walking right, I was just blinded by my own ignorance; although the intentions were the correct ones, my methods were so far from being right that I soon started to doubt. But today, yesterday, since January 20th 2006 those doubts have disappeared and are destroyed, because now I know... I know what it is, I know what it takes, I know how to get there, I know I have what it takes, I know what to do, and above all I know and believe this is for me. Today I know I can, I feel I can, I believe I can, and I know I will.

Thank you to those who believe in me, and like me, now know. My God for allowing me to be who I am, and giving me absolutely everything I am and have. My family for support me every single day of my life, and altho being separated during most of the year, I know their love and support are right here with me. To the Corpas' and YellowRobes' whose vision and sacrifice has put me in this position. To my niggas, Alex for giving me doses of reality when needed, Jorge for making the most out of the word friendship... without your love and support, I wouldnt be where I am and I would've not lasted as much as I have. To my baby, who makes me a better man, shows me that everythin has a reason, and is there when I need her advise... you have become so much, with so little... brightness is all we have ahead. To my brother and trainer Brandon, whose love for the game drives me more than I've ever thought. To my trainer Shana, whose knowledge and understanding teaches me that it's all in me... no quittin before the finish line. To my school's trainer Dennis, whose work allowed me to run and jump like before. Coaches, teammates, parents, prayers...

Time to go, time to prepare, time to perform.......

"Men are born to live, not to prepare to live"