The Silence Treatment

It almost sounds like a childhood punishment, and it probably was for somebody out there... but for me, it will become my phylosopy and my m.o. for the rest of the season. Not pretending to be negative here, nor childish, that is not my intention; I'm just going to listen, to hear, to absorb, to emulate, instead of talking and complaining. It is extremely simple, and very easy to do, consisting on observing and empiracally analyzing everything that occurs during practices, games, talks, bus rides, and everything else that has to do with the team. I'm not going to become an outcast, but I will become an outcast of myself, turning into an outsider, in order to attain and reach the goals that I've set.

Maybe they don't see it, but I do. Maybe they don't believe it, but I do. Maybe they don't think about it, but I do. Once again, in the same situation, and once again, history repeats itself, but only to get better. How good will it get? Just as good as He wants it to get, and as far as you want to take it. Just remember, for the rest of your days:

NOTHING WORTH HAVING

COMES WITHOUT BEING EARNED

Last Train to Wherever

It is the last opportunity to make it, the last chance to get on that train, the train that will take me to that hidding place where I want to be so desperatly... But now, desperation has changed into motivation, and fear has become a friend, that pushes me harder and harder everytime. I made the decission, I took the step, and finally stopped what had become the strongest hurricane inside my confused mind.

What's ahead now? What's hidding around this new corner?... Only God knows and plans. I'm ready, I've been ready for this, I just didn't know how to open the door and let the light in. I feel this is a new start, a new begining, a fresh reset in my life, in which although I still have the same worries, the approach has now changed and become more clear.

I'm on the last train to wherever... wherever You take me. New journey ahead, new ways, new approaches... but same motivations and goals. Goals that have never changed, but because of my own ignorance, and lack of determination, have been clouded and distorted. Now they have adopted their original form and shape, and now, once again, they lead my actions, and are driven by purpose. To those that have opened my eyes, thank you... Thank you Lord, thank you life, thank you Yil, Jorge, Safurinha, Pai, Brian, David, FJ...... I am the luckiest man on this earth for having the best friends I could ever asked for.

Time to travel, find Goa, find Wherever, find God, find me...